Difficult

(originally written 2/18)

This is easier than I thought it would be.

Not having you here.

In a weird way,

My heart is at ease,

that you aren’t with her.

That you have to grow up now,

gain some independence.

I don’t need you anymore.

I really don’t.

I’m finding my voice

my rage

my point of view

And although I think it would be nice to go back to our perfect bubble

where we were unstoppable,

inseparable,

that’s not what I need anymore.

I need to leave here.

See 100 new faces a day.

I think that’s what I need

Please don’t invite me to your wedding

If you ever have one.